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I want to say it out loud but I can’t.

I want to throw tantrum but I can’t.

I want to show you how hurt I am because of you but I can’t.

I want to ask you WHY but I can’t.

I want to cry but I don’t want to show you.

I need something to let out my anger.

I can’t hold it anymore.

I can’t bear with your ignorance anymore.

I can’t make sure that I will not hate you.

I can’t make sure that I can talk to you as normal as I can.

I just can’t.

You don’t know how much I love you.

You only see others in your eyes but never me.

What do you think I am? Who do think I am?

I’m your friend!!! But you think I’m just someone that you know.

I just want to be a friend that you can rely on but nooooo……you only find her if you have problems…

Okay then, it is FINE.. no it is not fine!! It will be fine when I start HATING you!! And I don’t want to end up in hating you..!!!! arrghhhhh…. This is so damn bullshit.. you are so fucking shit..!!

I lost my patience to handle you.. I know I’m not easy to handle too but at least I give out emotion. Not like you!!..

The only thing that you care other than your family is your lover and your other committee.

How racist you are! Huuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…!!

I’m grateful that I created a BLOG because I can let out my feeling by writing nonsense...

Now I feel a bit better.. ^_________________<

the LAST day at S.K. Bariawa Ulu

"cikgu!cikgu!..nanti dtg kelas kami ya..ada kami mo bg sma cikgu.."

"hai cikgu..hai cikgu..hai cikgu.."

"slamat pagi cikgu..slamat pagi cikgu..slamat pagi cikgu.."

"nah, ni utk cikgu..nah, ini lagi..dan lagi..dan lagi.."

"nanti cikgu datang la lg p sini..cikgu datang lg yaa.."

"cikgu jangan lupa sama kami ah.."

"KAMI SAYANG CIKGU..WE LOVE YOU.."

dapat SURAT n PRESENT dr student year 4bestari... *bahagiaaaaa...

"kami doakan cikgu dtg ajar kami lagi.."

"kami doakan cikgu ajar kami sampai mati.."

(pemikiran kanak2 yg sgt innocence..)

"kami sangat sayang cikgu.."

"ROH KAMI DAH DEKAT DENGAN CIKGU.."

( Ya Allah, mmg statement yg wat kami terkesima..)

sebak jg msa tgglkan mereka td..

Insya-Allah ada masa kmi dtg melawat lg..

lau d izinkan, nak praktikum kat sna nanti.. *msa tu bla 4bestari dh jd 6bestari..

tak smpat nak meluangkn lbih msa dgn mereka cuz GB pggl ada prjumpaan.. *huh..

tp ada jg yg snggup tgu ktorang..

gambar ckit..

syg xdpt nak gmbr rmai2 ngn dorg sekelas.. *hampa...

*kakak sy ckp, awl2 PBS mmg la best..lpas dua tiga hari, bosan..

kami pula trbalik..

awl2 PBS sgt la bosan..xsbar ja mo balik..

lama2, best pulak..mcm mo truskan brPBS..haha..*

MASA TAMAT..

JAM12 kami berangkat pulang..

murid2 ckp slmat tggl..smpai ke jln raya.. *iya ka?..hihik..

dr cermin pndang blakang, sy hanya mampu tgk mereka mnghantar kmi pulang.. *sob..sob..

"BYE..BYE..cikgu..BYEBYE.."

<3 ^_____^ <3



THURSDAY 24 MARCH 2011

its a HAPPY day at school..
we played with the students *year 4 BESTARI..
it was fun...very..very FUN..
they give their attention n cooperation to us..
we really really like them...

*mls ckp english*
truskn, ada 1 bdk tu lam group sy,
dia nangis.. *huhu..
punyalarr sy nebes.. *sangaatt..
nda sngka sy bleh mngeluarkan kata2 pujukan kat bdk2..impressive..! *sndri nda ble pcya..haha

Cikgu Siti dtg tlg pujuk..
dia msih berkeras..
Cikgu Liyana dtg pujuk..
masih jg sma..
mnta tlg kwn pujuk ajk men,
geleng2 pala..

so, kmi decide nk biar dy je sndri.. *pdn muke..hihi
moving on ngn game sterusnya..
sy jeling2 jg tgk dy kat blakang.. *cian..
lmaaa gtue, dy nmpak mcm interested tp msih malu2..
then, jeng..jeng..jeng..
dy angkt krusi join sma.. *tu pn lpas kwn2 ajk dy..

tba msa rehat,
kmi bg dorg present.. *makanan..
suma dorg happy.. *terharu..

memandangkan 24MARCH2011 ni adalah saat2 pnghujung kmi bsma meka,
kmi ceta2..
dorg nda pnah hbis dgn soalan.. *bgus student yg aktif n byk ide..
wlaupun soalan sma, berulang kmi nda jemu lyan dorg.. *sebak pulakkk...! huhu..

oh, nak ceta cket..
kami ada student yg ada SAKIT JANTUNG...! *mmg saspen ah..
nama dy Iklil Amal..
bdk ni sgt comel..
sgt aktif..
sgt ceria..
sgt talkative..
truthfully, sy tkut ngn dy..
bkn tkut apa tp risauu lau ada papa tjadi kat dy msa khadiran kmi..

"Cikgu! Cikgu! bila besar nanti, cita-cita saya mau jadi mekanik. nanti kalau kereta c Azhar rusak, saya datang kasi baik.. bayaran murah ja..ada laaa dalam satuuuuuuuu...jutaaa..ehehe.."
"waaaa..punya mahal..kalau kereta cikgu rusak?brapa la mau bayar?"
"kalau cikgu saya kasi murah sijaa.. RM15..hehehe.."

conversation antara sy n gee(yg mnjadi saksi) ngn dy..
mmg sgt2 mnyentuh aty nurani kami.. *sob..sob..
tgk dy ja sy rsa nak nangis..igt dy ja wat air mata ini mengalir..

sya berfikir sndri..brtanya kat jiran,
"ble ka dy capai cita2 dy?sempat ka ah??"

YA ALLAH,
ENGKAU pnjangkanlah umur Iklil agar dia sempat utk mencapai cita2nya..
bagilah dy peluang untuk trus hidup..brjuang utk mnggapai kjayaan..
sekiranya ada peluang utk smbuh, berikanlah dy peluang itu.. AMIN

adakah jiwa ini sesuai utk menjadi seorang guru?
layakkah sy?
bolehkah sy?
sya tkut tdk dpt memikulnya..
apa yg sy rsaukn, sy nda dpt kawal emosi..
samada amarah dan yg lebih truk, tangisan.. *huhuwaaahh..

kini sya lebih yakin dgn kerjaya ini.. *kyaaaaaaa~api membara..
sy akn trus belajar utk mnjadi seorang guru yg boleh mendidik murid2nya..
sya mau..mau utk trus jd guru.. *asa..asa..HWAITING..!!

ini masa depan sy..
kerjaya GURU yg akn sy gapai..yeaahhhh..  *INSYA-ALLAH

^_______________________^

Yesterday-Today-Tomorrow

YESTERDAY,

what did we do..?? *DAMN bored..!!

even I didn't remember.. *wow..

nasib baik . . . .  . ..  ....

hurrayyy...BALIK awal..hahaha... *alhamdulillah

TODAY,

UBF pengakap...... *rinduunyerr...huhu

Cikgu Tiffi ajar menyanyi..

"dipercayai, taat, berguna..
bersaudara, berbudi..
kasihkan binatang, menurut perintah..
tabah hati, berjimat..
suci fikiran,
suci perkataan,
suci perbuatan.."

pastu MAIN..

goreng pisang *bukan sejenis makanan

BEST.. *sbb lama nda main..heheh

mesti UBF lain jeles sama kami org... *muahahahaha

hari ini juga,

kami...............KENA SURUH MASUK KELAS... *huaaaaaa

TAHUN 3..

OMG.. tahun 3 tp mcm tahun 2.. *risauuuuuuuuuu...

then, lepakz lagiii... *tengok movie SINI ADA HANTU...

bikin MALU terkejut duluan dr murid.. *kwang..kwang..kwang..drop  my water face... >.<

ada lg..

kena cari oleh PK HEM n PK KOKUM.. *lucuu...haha

patutnyerr, kmi cari cgu msa PBS..ni tbalik pulak.. *ngeeeeeeee~

TOMORROW,

who knows what will happen tomorrow..

i'm just hoping that tomorrow will be a FUN n LOVING day.. *insyaAllah..

report of the day~

woaaaaaaaaaaa....
penatnye ary ni... *padahal xwat papa pown..

ada bh...PBS..
BOSAN dowh..!!
suma tgu msa balek ja..hahahah..

pastu jln2 kat pekan..pusing2 tgu geng g bank..makan..kenyang..

balik hostel trus K.O.. *ofcoz mandi dlu yeaa..

bangun2 jak,

lenguh badan...sengal tulang... *mcm pnat gilak

wuuuu~sedih..

cuz,

my favourite couple is coming to an end.. *YONGSEO GOGUMA COUPLE

waeireonni..waeireonni..jongmal waeireonni..huuhu
*haven't seen them POPPO yet!! kyaaaaaaaaaaaa...

org busy je myiapkan assignment..

AKU..?

ngah siok m'download ep.49 *yongseo

TAPI..!

aish....

LINE BROADBAND (dlm bilik) MACAM SHIT!! ">.>